My Life

Well, college just began. This is my sophomore year. I have a private room, and that helps me considerably. The first few days were pretty good. I changed my major to English lit. I did a lot the first few days with little problem, so I think I'm making up for it now.

My social anxiety decided that I wasn't paying it enough attention. While writing a check in Kroger, I freaked out. I was determined that I did not know how to write a check. Rather silly, perhaps, but I was expecting the cashier to give me the check back and ridicule me. Of course, this didn't happen and I wrote the check correctly, but I couldn't breathe for a few minutes. I'm back to avoiding eye contact as I pass people just so I don't have to smile and say hi.

I'm trying to work on it. I have the book "Dying of Embarrassment" and I have a binder in which I have written my goals and such. And I'm starting therapy this week. I wasn't go to see what counseling my college offered, but with some encouragement from the best people in the world, I got up the nerve. I'm hoping this is the year I can overcome it.